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*dogs barking in the background* From beautiful France in Burgundy – Oh, would you shut up! – You’re watching A Show with Ze Frank. NikkyLooka writes… Man that comment made me feel crappy, you know why, because my projector started running. *projector noise* You ever do that, project a movie from your past onto someone, vomiting emotions and feelings all over some unsuspecting person? They say some little thing, you feel like you got hit by a wave, and suddenly you withdraw or you lunge, and you feel like you did when you were small, and you say, “You! You made me angry!” or “You made me sad!” But I have to keep remembering that I brought more people into the room. That my projector is plastering Instagram-tinted footage all over the place, from when I was six or thirteen, hell, from last week, or even yesterday! And it’s hard enough to have a conversation with one person, and now you’re having it with ghosts, too! Ghosts that once made you feel shunned or angry or alone, or maybe even made you feel like you might get annihilated altogether. And so often I don’t even see the ghosts, I look right through ’em and I forget about the projector, and I say, “You! You made me feel!” But no, no, no, your comment didn’t make me feel crappy, I own that, let me explain. My first language wasn’t English, it was German, And when I started in my first American school I can vaguely remember not knowing what the hell was going on. How did they all know when to clap, for garsh sakes, and how did they know the same songs? I’m mouthing along and clapping off-time, the last one standing on a sit-down drop and that feeling stayed with me. The feeling that there was a secret set of rules that everyone knew and I was doomed to be one step behind, Doomed to pretend familiarity and doomed to pretend to be laid back when my ears were perked and my hackles were up. And that, my dear, is what I projected onto you, that not knowing the language made you feel alone. And my gut knotted up and I wanted to protect you, and I don’t even know if you feel like that! It doesn’t really have to do with you at all, it doesn’t even have to to with now; it’s a conversation I’ve been having with the world for years. I wish I could fix it. Grab that chubby little German boy and sit him on my lap, and tell him that even if there’s a million rules that you don’t understand, All the important ones are few and simple and half of those are encoded in a damn hug! Dammit! But I can’t. I can’t fix it. Certainly not by pounding my hands against a wall that’s showing an old video. And not by projecting those moments onto you, so I try to catch it when it happens and shut the projector off, ask questions. Is it real? No? Okay, right. It’s now, not then, let’s do now. But let me do this for you, NikkyLooka, since I projected all over you and you’re not fluent in English, let me playing level it field the. As words if matter important while watching and face not all eyes in meaning that. And weekend syllambulon fullaborate in a spiky too little. Nor does Bill Wadman favorite on has mission for it next day’s photographer. Please it now. For your next assignment, take a picture of somebody while they’re bellylaughing hysterically. You’ll need a good joke and a fast trigger finger. Let’s see what you come up with. Dream will you now Lee Hall animate happy salad. I’m sitting on the edge of a cliff overlooking this immense valley that seems like I’m somewhere in Subsaharan Africa. Sitting beside me is this aboriginal man, and I ask him, What did it feel like, the the first time you discovered all of this? He points to the horizon, where the sun is setting, and it just explodes in this array of colors of pinks and oranges and fiery reds, And we both begin to cry. Good bye, bye, bye, it’s the bye-bye song.

100 Comments

  • Aski [Fin]

    October 22, 2012

    Agreed, to clarify I meant more about this: Being born in X speaking language does not give you birthright to speaking fluently language X. but your answer is far better than mine.

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  • SilverrAnn

    October 26, 2012

    I was thinking the same thing xD!

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  • ThisIsNoise17

    November 9, 2012

    The tarhood, wielding zygal vergiform halberds, and blucklets with fesses, with ferity, cadged their quenelle to the nasute xenoepists.

    ^All (obscure) English words. I guess you're not fluent, are you?

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  • Aski [Fin]

    November 9, 2012

    Never said I was.

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  • Aski [Fin]

    November 9, 2012

    No, you are not fluent either, or you just jump to conclusions.. "Being born in X speaking language does not give you birthright to speaking fluently language X", did I there state that there were no fluently speaking people who are born in the country X, no. obviously there are fluent speakers of X but being born in X does not make you fluent.

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  • lzeph

    November 9, 2012

    bluebanshee3: "I was just odd… rules The Rest of the World knows." Me too! I felt lost and like an outsider, and perceived both as character flaws. In my late 30s I began to work toward not hating myself (slow learner). Then someone told me, 'That which sets you apart is that which makes you extraordinary.' When I finally understood what that means, 'not hating myself' became 'loving myself'' – a subtle but powerful shift in perspective. I am still an outsider, but now I see it as a blessing.

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  • Nguyen Quyen

    January 5, 2013

    no wonder you re so weird, you're german… (in a good way :D)

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  • Nikolas Pearson

    January 13, 2013

    The joke's on you, when you mix up the words in a sentence, it sounds the same to me because that's what happens in my head anyway. 🙂

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  • m a

    January 15, 2013

    you're german? cool. Guten Tag von Deutschland und osterreich!

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  • JubNuggets

    January 21, 2013

    Du sprechst deutsch? Ich lerne deutsch!

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  • ThisGuyNeedsaJob

    January 23, 2013

    okay Ze i love your videos but, the ending to this one was trolling hardcore for the fact that i actually thought that you were formulating normal sentences based on the observation that you were connecting the completely discombobulating words so fluently… it's just not cewl

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  • Cthulos

    January 27, 2013

    I don't even have to pay attention to the meaning behind the words when I watch your videos, Ze. There's just something comforting behind the prosody that always makes me feel at ease, even when I'm having a bad day. Thank you for being there and posting your videos.

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  • Sometimes Sloth

    January 28, 2013

    I wish I could hug you.

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  • dody0416

    February 8, 2013

    Wait, Ze is a trans-cultural person? That actually explains a lot…

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  • Eclectic Effervescence

    February 15, 2013

    Again… Wow

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  • wantin

    February 27, 2013

    absolutely.. just one thing about it:
    aborigenes (sry if this is not written correctly) are not from africa, so he talks with another man, who is visiting?…

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  • zefrank1

    March 4, 2013

    no! not true – what a terrible thing to say to someone! why wouldn't you blame me for being a bit confusing!

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  • fannarrativeftw

    March 4, 2013

    Well, he says it *seems* like he's in sub-Saharan africa, so he could be anywhere, and since aboriginal is "Inhabiting or existing in a land from the earliest times; indigenous." he could be talking to a man whose entire family history for as far back as anyone knows is in Africa. That ought to fit the definition.

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  • Xophist

    March 4, 2013

    Do you still translate to German in your head?

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  • DoctorAndHisTARDIS

    March 4, 2013

    Wait, are you insulting her, or complimenting Ze? 'Cause, I'm a little confused.

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  • Firstname Lastname

    March 4, 2013

    I like that he has a thinkgeek sticker on his shelf.

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  • P Quiroga

    March 4, 2013

    I'm impressed you read a 6-months old comment today. Cool 🙂

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  • Davy Jones

    March 4, 2013

    I fail to see how his country of origin bears any relevance. There are crass and cruel people all over the world. By generalizing your insult, you're not much different from him. 🙂

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  • Davy Jones

    March 4, 2013

    He read a five hour old comment that was replying to a 6 month old comment. 😛

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  • ɪᴍᴀɢɪɴᴀʀʏꜰᴀɴʙoʏ

    March 5, 2013

    The fact that they can speak another language automatically should make them sound intelligent.

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  • AblonPahdellaJaherst

    March 5, 2013

    Who needs eye lids anyway?

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  • Kelvin Mackay

    March 5, 2013

    Instead of not trying to be a dick, try trying not to be a dick

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  • Charles Talhelm

    March 5, 2013

    I got distracted for a bit and when I came back to this I couldn't understand what was going on at all! hahaha

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  • sth128

    March 5, 2013

    Holding a staring contest with Ze Frank made me blind. He never blinks! WTF?

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  • Aetos1337

    March 5, 2013

    you must have terrible self esteem issues, buddy!

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  • Mozata

    March 5, 2013

    No.

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  • -IlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlI-

    March 5, 2013

    You look like this head in art attack.

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  • onedecadelater

    March 5, 2013

    Ze, thanks for this. I recently moved to a country where English is not the primary language. For the first time in my life I found myself feeling isolated, different, and a little dumb. I can't even count the number of times I've pretended to laugh at a joke.

    I think most monolingual people don't appreciate how freaking difficult it is to learn a new language, especially when forced to.

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  • onedecadelater

    March 5, 2013

    this.

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  • pepperwings

    March 5, 2013

    I hate that, I ALWAYS give someone the benefit of the doubt and I give them synonyms until I hit something they know if a word is confusing them.

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  • TheDoctorluna

    March 6, 2013

    Love your stuff, Ze

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  • Ozí MV

    March 6, 2013

    I had the same problem when I started school here in the states. I spoke only Spanish and I started late so they had their daily rhythm set, and I was struggling to understand what people said to me. Needless to say I didn't have the most friends.

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  • zamxit

    March 6, 2013

    Omg that word jumbling HAHAHA! xD

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  • TheJaredtheJaredlong

    March 6, 2013

    At first I was all like like "Zefrank's native language is German?! But he has zero accent!" and then I remembered all the Native-German speaking friends I've made in college and how I always forget they're German because they have zero accent. Accents sure are goofy business.

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  • Gherk 72

    March 6, 2013

    *thats because you arent intelligent enough* really, are you serious my native language is english I know no other and some times I have trouble knowing what he says but you know what im top in various subjects but I wont say because someone may feel small. but that doesnt make me intelligent or gives me a high IQ because saying someone is unintelligent means they cant complete the simplest tasks so really not knowing what zefrank is saying can be intelligence in its own way

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  • Gherk 72

    March 6, 2013

    I would have explained what intelligence is but I ran out of characters. 😛

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  • BoberMcBoberson

    March 6, 2013

    Aren't You Delicious 🙂

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  • catholicguyforever

    March 7, 2013

    Zefrank, you are so humble! I love that about you. Perhaps that's the German in you.

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  • Angel Martinez

    March 7, 2013

    I have no idea how I came across your channel, but I don't give a shit. I fucking like your videos.

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  • username1445

    March 7, 2013

    I was actually without any language for 1st 3years of my life due to a doctor screw up, no one knew i was deaf for quite sometime though because of missing key years in language development i was stuck in a word not quite know what i was hearing or the correct way to say things, so many speech classes and language classes failing to master even my own language much less any other made me afraid to speak afraid to talk to people for fear of not understand or saying the right thing.

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  • Zalanea

    March 8, 2013

    I don't believe I'm crazy, but I do believe the monkey-face sticker stuck to Magic Cubby briefly vanished @ 1:00

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  • jamym42

    March 8, 2013

    Me too, sometimes I need to watch them a couple times. 🙂 I think it's a sign that you ARE intelligent, and you're thinking about them deeply.

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  • Christpapi0

    March 8, 2013

    Blink dammit blink

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  • Sarah Vivino

    March 9, 2013

    ZeFrank. I relate to you in a way that startles me into remembering my own authenticity. Sometimes there is no other way to get what is inside of you out than to let it garble its way to the surface. Somehow that garbled language is unpacked on my end in such a way that i guess I just get it. I think.So thanks.

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  • Diana Watson

    March 11, 2013

    Ihr Reißverschluss nach unten. Ich hoffe.

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  • CelesteofOz

    March 11, 2013

    Wasn't expecting that kind of projector. When someone surprises my mind, its as fun as being tickled.

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  • bbkidfan

    March 12, 2013

    that was the best dream I have ever heard of

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  • Jackie Obecunas

    March 15, 2013

    You are the best. You will have people in your life that will try to tear you down to make themselves "better than". I know, I have known people like that. Remember all the love and happiness you give and ignore the ignorant. We all have your back. 🙂

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  • Jackie Obecunas

    March 15, 2013

    You always make me smile, laugh and wonder. Love you.

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  • SengirShowsU

    March 16, 2013

    The sentence that changed my mind from "Subscribed" to "in love"

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  • Sabine DeShazo

    March 23, 2013

    My experience moving to the US from Germany was much the same 🙂

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  • rupert003

    April 4, 2013

    I wonder if you get off on quantifying a person's intelligence. Do you often find yourself looking for signs that yours is a bit higher? If you do, you are human, and you have much to learn still.

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  • roratruth

    April 5, 2013

    Although I did feel confused at those last few sentences 😉 you don't need to be blamed either, we're all learning here 🙂

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  • Bryan Stevens

    April 10, 2013

    I always love your videos. They give me this weird sense of calm that not much else can do

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  • Yiannis Argyros

    April 12, 2013

    Wow really lucky I found this. Totally changed my aspect on learning german and feeling dumb when someone doesnt understand me. Danke viel mals

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  • Reason UPSB

    April 13, 2013

    that dream was beautiful.

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  • WlNDMlLL

    April 13, 2013

    Instead of not trying to be a dick to a dick, try trying not to be a dick to a dick.

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  • Kelvin Mackay

    April 13, 2013

    dickception

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  • MadE

    April 14, 2013

    Waaaaaiitt …. he's German ?

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  • WlNDMlLL

    April 17, 2013

    a dick within a dick. mmmm gross

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  • Jackson Webster

    April 20, 2013

    this guy is genius. Each video just gets better….

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  • Chris Hubley

    April 20, 2013

    Being able to process lots of information in language isn't the only sign of intelligence.

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  • TheBunny452

    April 27, 2013

    It really was wasn't it? :3

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  • TheBunny452

    April 27, 2013

    I was born in Germany <3 yay I have something in common with Zefrank… I think… crap I may have grasped at my internet cookie prematurely <_<

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  • Bbfishman

    April 27, 2013

    idk why but i always feel like the people at the end are lying about their dreams whenever you have one of those as an outro. i just get the sense that they're lying to enhance their dreams pretty much. i dont know why, because they may perfectly well be telling the 100% truth….

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  • cjspurg

    April 28, 2013

    I love this one. Ze is so good at explaining things everyone feels, and helping you be aware of it in the future. My favorite is when we see little glimpses of his past.

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  • Lunacidee

    May 2, 2013

    Ok man I could tell you were German just from your face. I moved to Austria on my own last year and you look IDENTICAL to one of my neighbors (in fact when I first saw one of your vids I was like "FRANZ?! BIST DU ON YOUTUBE?!"). Also, I spent the better part of tonight watching your videos and I'm alone in another country embarking on adulthood and everything you say has been so inspiring and motivating me to do more and not sit alone in my room in a cocoon of blankets watching movies.

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  • Hugo das Dschungeltier

    May 8, 2013

    Oh ich wusste nicht das du Deutsch sprichst

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  • kason bryden

    May 13, 2013

    You in your fluency and intelligence have missed the overall message of Ze's videos. I'm sure Jayla could explain it to you.

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  • A. M. Merritt

    May 19, 2013

    I had that experience in reverse. My parents moved to Germany when I was six and though it would be great to dump me in German kindergarden. I didn't speak the language, the other german kids were mean to me, and I learned that they gave excess b-day credit-if I told them I would be 7 on my birthday, they put 8 candles on my cake. It was like they counted the year zero.

    As an adult, this finally made sense when I became a CS major. But now my coworkers are mostly Indian and Chinese. So no gain.

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  • A. M. Merritt

    May 19, 2013

    Oh he blinks. He just edits them out of the final cut.

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  • JewelsFalcon

    May 21, 2013

    My projector started running like that when I was watching Iron Man 3. Tony started having anxiety attacks, which made the rest of the audience laugh (for some reason), but almost made me cry. I've been having anxiety problems since I was about ten years old, so I just felt like a small, uncomfortable, sad, scared child while the audience was laughing at the kid in the movie worsen his anxiety, but I wanted to help him, and he's just a fictional character.
    I know that's a strange connection.

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  • keisha 21

    June 4, 2013

    that may be the best dream so far… I'm new here, and I love it here… 🙂

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  • Mitsudomo

    June 6, 2013

    Blink!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O_O

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  • Andrew Epic

    June 10, 2013

    ja das ist toll =3

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  • Andrew Epic

    June 10, 2013

    pls dont feel sad iron man has pepper pots and someday u will find someone (or u might of had)

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  • Nanciefy

    June 16, 2013

    Me too.

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  • Newt 144

    June 28, 2013

    0_0 Is that a timmy I see in the top left?

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  • giveintohappiness

    July 5, 2013

    I really hope you have learned by now not to compare Germans with Austrians. It's like comparing Americans with Britains. Or Australians. Or Canadians. 😉

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  • Locknash

    July 29, 2013

    I felt things while watching this

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  • Matthew

    August 23, 2013

    Alone in a new country, clean start, fresh slate, embarking on adulthood, and your neighbor looks like Zefrank.
    Sounds like the beginning of an adventure.

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  • Sarah Ketron

    September 21, 2013

    I lost 90% of my hearing when I was six years old, so I connect to this on a personal level. The "feeling out of the loop" bit. That feeling still hasn't completely gone away for me, even today.

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  • Grin Bear

    October 9, 2013

    Am I the only one shocked by the fact that English is Ze's second language? He's so fracking rad at it.

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  • Pieter

    January 20, 2014

    google translate english! 😀

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  • Antti The Internet Guy

    March 18, 2014

    i love your videos! but i have to confess i really dont always understand every fancy sentences and such, but i always get the point. and sometimes i just like to put one of your videos on and dont really concentrate on it at all, i just like the way you speak. it makes me entertained and not-so-lonely when i feel like i just want to stay home alone for the rest of the day 🙂

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  • AndreaAldaz

    March 31, 2014

    I wish I can have dreams like that. All my dreams are never clear or not very special.

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  • William Clelland

    April 19, 2014

    2:15
    Let me plane level it field the.
    As words if matter important while 
    watching and face not all eyes and 
    meaning that/ma'

    and weekends selambion*? flaberate'n
    a spiky too little
    nor to spill wadmon'n faverdon has
    mission for it next days photographer
    please it now.

    Deram will you now Lee Hall animate happy salad.

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  • Zachary Adkins

    May 9, 2014

    anybody else get the zefrank narrated advertisement right before the zefrank video?

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  • Zachary Adkins

    May 9, 2014

    wait, hes german?!?!?!?!

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  • Book Milk

    November 5, 2014

    Really hit me my man, training to be a counselor right now and It's so hard to be reflective and catch yourself in these moments and listen in on what your emotions are telling you about a particular situation. Are you protecting a client who wants to talk about a painful past event because you yourself have experienced something like that or because you have been protected from intense emotions and you feel that this service should be provided to all human beings ahh idk hopefully this comment helps me remember this topic more clearly. 

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  • qwertyasdkl

    July 1, 2015

    I miss you Ze.

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  • arp642

    November 1, 2015

    I want to hear Ze sing a silly song in German.

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  • Matthew Davis

    January 3, 2016

    So I'm assuming that he's German in the fact that it was his first language.

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  • J H

    January 17, 2017

    Lets get Ze to 2 million subs! Maybe he'll come back!

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  • Jasper Knight

    July 12, 2017

    i have no idea whats going on in your videos but for some reason they make me laugh

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